Friday, October 26, 2007

My First Date




This is one of the most touching story i read in a forward - - Do Read it Pls.
I still remember the first date I ever went on in my life. Usually first dates are memorable to everyone but for me it was something that I can never forget. I went out for my first date with my high school crush when I was in class eleven. It was a day that I planned for weeks and finally she, Rachna, agreed to come out with me, Prasun Roy! In school who was famous for being a person with a cool attitude with no constraints from the family end, whose parents were more of buddies than dominating guardians! However the fact remained that I too was from a middle class family with core values and principles like all others.

Back home I lied to my parents that I was going out for a school excursion and managed to get the approval of my parents and finally the day arrived. After a short lunch at a funky restaurant, Rachna and I went hand in hand for a movie. As the evening was drawing to a close we were roaming in the streets of "New Market" talking to each other, about each other. Life suddenly seemed so beautiful. All of a sudden, out of the forgotten multitude that was also walking in the same street, I could see a familiar face quite distinct- why I didn't know. As realization embraced my consciousness, I comprehended that the face of the person approaching me from the other side was of none other than but my

FATHER!

Within a fraction of a second all romanticism vanished from my heart and a fear engrossed it instead. I could interpret in that short time the amount of humility and shame I would face suddenly as my father would recognize me, scold me after we meet, and that was inevitable! Apart from the scorn that I would face at home, I could also feel the embarrassment I would face in front of Rachna, who recognized as the cool guy ... in school as well as back home!

Crippled with the fear I only prayed that the earth would open up and I would hide there from all the humility. However there seemed no practical escape from it. Then something happened. My father came near me, along with the now not-so-forgotten multitude, looked into my eyes as a stranger and passed by me rubbing his shoulder against mine and passed by without even recognizing me. It was the biggest shock and relief of my life. I still don't know which emotion was predominant at that moment. After sometime, Rachna went away to her home oblivious of the fact whatever I just revealed, and I came back to mine.

At home that night, life seemed to me like a prison. I went for dinner with a fearful heart and a lost appetite. To my surprise, everything was so very normal. My mother served dinner and we all ate the usual way. This made my life more miserable. I quickly finished my food and went back to my room. Questions crowded my mind and I couldn't figure out what might have happened after my father came back home and revealed about my forged romantic rendezvous. Why everything was still so normal pained my mind even more!

Presently my father calmly came into my room and sat beside me. I looked into his eyes with fear in mine but discovered a smooth comfort in his! He soothingly asked, "So Sunny Boy, how was your date, I must say she was a pretty and sweet lady!" Like somewhat mesmerized I revealed everything to him about my first date and added, "Dad, it was simply out of this world, but the day passed away li ke a few minutes only!"

He smiled and said, "You know what, Albert Einstein once said .... Put your hand on a hot oven for a minute and it would seem like and hour; put your hand upon a pretty lady for an hour and it would seem like a minute! Now that's relativity. It's all relative, the fact is how much you cherish what you gained ... RIGHT! This is the biggest lesson of life my son"

I had never seen my father being like this before; he was more of a buddy than my guardian actually. I could feel within me that I would never ever be able to hide anything else from him, he actually understood me much more than my own self. We talked for an hour and I would remember those words forever perhaps! I couldn't interpret whether it was my First Date with my dream girl or the First Date of knowing my father actually. However I knew that I realized how much I loved and respected my father after that.

Just as he was leaving my room I called him and said "Thank You daddy! Thank you so much!"
Both of us knew what I was thankful for and required no mentioning.

He turned towards me with his dreamy eyes and said these words...

"Hey son, how could I ever let you down my child, never! I would just say, whatever happens in life and whomever you love in your life and to whatever degree, you only remember one thing that your Daddy has loved you 18 years more than that. 18 years more than that dear!"

He switched off the light and went to his room. In the mild blue and gray of the moonlight ushering into my room through the window I too could feel one thing ... Yes, it's truly 18 more years of Love, I, or any child, can never ever cover up! It was in fact my First Date, the first one of actually realizing the Love I had taken for granted for all those Eighteen Years perhaps! It truly was so.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Friend - A soul of my life

I have been following my dreams, walking along the dark dreaded wild forest. Had thousands of them around me cursing for entering the deadly forest. Only one hand that showed me the path to go. Only those legs which traveled along with me to those rough paths. Only those words that kept me going. Only those smiles that kindled my hope. Only those unspoken words that made you dear to me. I may one day achieve my dreams. After all dreams are meant to be achieved, but my biggest achievement is you.

My lord thanks for all those troubles and pains, which helped me to find a pure soul that vibrates for me. Thank you my friend for being a part of my soul.

For all my friends,

Thank for all my friends who had been,

My dreams, when I sleep

Shoulders, when I cry

Words, when I stammered

Ears, when I speak

Rain, when I am tired

Candle, when I am in dark

Heart, when I am in love


You have been everything to me

My last wish,

I want you to be those flowers,

In my bed when I am Dead !

- JM




Sunday, June 10, 2007

Oasis to Mirage

I would like to express my transition from real freedom to assumed freedom. I am here talking about my transition from my college to the booming IT industry. I would like to pour my one year experience of the so called glamorous and fun filled IT industry.


We used to wander those spacious heat filled open grounds and dirty class rooms with just 50Rs. in pocket and plan the whole week with that budget. But now we wander along the well cleaned, fully air-conditioned corridors with about five to six credit cards in our pocket planning where to swipe the cards. Credit cards eagerly waiting to eat next month’s salary. I can’t believe that it was just one year before that the 50Rs. seemed to be lacks now, lacks seems to be nothing.


College canteen, Tea shops were the favorite hot spots where we spent hours together, having a hearty chat with our buddies forgetting the whole world. But now Cafe Day, Quickies, Baristas have taken those places. What a coffee cost 2.5Rs last year has now gone up to 50Rs a cup.


Those precious days where we used to laugh for nothing, while chatting or while playing or even when you fail in your paper because you have got 30 marks for a empty paper. But now you rarely smile except the smile for the forward you just received or the smile to your PM to impress him.


Hate ness and Ego were the words you haven’t heard in those days. You smash or hit your friend for some reason and the next moment you walk along him with hands on his shoulders. But now you doesn’t like the guy sitting beside you because he’s getting a salary 10k greater that you or he’s always being appreciated by your PM. True friends are hard to find here


In college if some one is talking badly about your college you can find your blood boiling inside even though you don’t like your principal. But here loyalty is the lost word, whenever someone is talking badly about your company you join them to criticize your company. You join the company with the resignation day in the mind, is this loyalty. Don’t mind I have also planned my resignation date.


You have seen the late nights only on the eve of the exam, where you rely on your friend to wake him/ her at night 1 or 2. And how can we forget those last minute tensions in exam, you remember that only just before entering the exam you find that you have forgotten to revise a important question that your friend suggested that it will surely appear on this exam. You rush back and flip those Xeroxed pages with tension. But today you work at least 2 days a week till 1 or 2 in the night to deliver something to your unknown client who is at US or UK. You are aimlessly typing at the useless word document that your PM asked you to finish with his tailor made smile. Loads of tension with calls from home, with your eye lids eager to kiss each other and you promise them to allow it a little later, cursing Bill Gates for inventing MSWord.


Writing all these to celebrate my first anniversary at this field. It seems I have been in my own desert where I have realized that I am moving from the warmth ness of the Oasis to chase a mirage. A mirage that promises a lot of thing, but still its just a mirage. When I turn back I can find thousands chasing that mirage with a ID card around their neck. I wish all the best for them.


Bye for now.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

A moment with your heart

Defining modern world... Mobiles waiting eagerly to transmit your lovely ones voice over thousands of kilometers, world sinking smaller and smaller at the click of a mouse, Flight speeds touching speed of light, rockets searing clouds, Machines at your command for everything."We rarely find time" becoming a fashion statement.. Can any one just stop these...!!
Have you ever talked to your heart.. Is this your heart wants..??

If we just think for a moment we may find those finest moments we missed in our life..
Have you ever thaught of doing these things.. If no think again..

  • How about sipping a hot coffee enjoying the smell of rain...
  • An early walk amidst the mist with sun still at its bed..
  • Small walk along the woods, with the memories of your lovely ones flowing happily...
  • Times when your heart become light..
  • Playing with a new born puppy..
  • Talking with an year old baby, neither of u dosent understand what the other say.. Still u smile smile and smile..
  • Having a hearty talk with your dear friend..

Theres lots of beauties in this world for you to cherish..a childs smile, a flowery garden, a mothers face after giving birth to her child, lush green mountain. Just open your eyes , not just your eyes your heart too.. Let your eyes and heart enjoy the beauty of earth..

Do you think the money which you are earning today is going to make you happy when you are lying in your death bed. No its those sweet memories thats going to bid you an happy adieu at the end..Start earning as many sweet memories as possible.. Live as your heart says not as others say. Its your heart thats going to come till your end not others.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Alchemist

Alchemist the best book i ever read. Paulo Coelho was sensationally at his best. Hes really a master in lightining up your minds. I lost the count of googebumps i got when i read Alchemist. Still now read it twice, planning to get my hands on to it for the third time.

These are the few lines which moved my heart.

"There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible,
The fear of failure.."

"The darkest hour of night comes just before dawn.."